Entry 54

Written on 18 December 2019, Wednesday:

Very blurry dream this morning, but lucky there was a dream remembered at all, woke up super late, 12:45 right now. . . Anyway, it was as if I was sick in bed waiting, not sure if I was also just watching the scene as if in a movie. I think my mom was outside the room, it’s an apartment room or the top floor of a building and I saw or was looking at or got a sense of the outside from the window. . . Then there’s a woman who’d just come in from a bath. She had a towel wrapped around her. . . She pulled up the towel and I could see her legs. She flashed her pussy. I remember thinking in the dream I wanted to see again, I wanted to rewind the scene, and this was the confusion in the dream, if I was watching it like a movie or if I was actually an actor in it. When I tried to rewind I realized I was seeing different or new scenes and so then I realized I wasn’t just a watcher. Next scene, the woman still had the towel around her back, but the front open, and I was having sex with her and I could see the down fuzz below her belly button were greyish. . .